Stepping Stones Of Oneness
I am the sensation of fear, and I want to completely disassociate from the experience of physical sensations and feel totally ungrounded.
I love physical sensations so much that I think I am one and the whole world is made of separate physical sensations, and I am enjoying this separateness until I suffer because of it and seek a way out of it, and I feel totally disconnected from any internal sense of peace.
I am aware that I am not a physical sensation or thought but am whatever it is that is aware of these, which is a discernible, ever-present, non-objective experience of my aware existence that I assume is someplace in my brain, and I can feel connected to a sense of peace internally and grounded.
I am aware that I cannot assume that this aware existence I am is someplace in my brain or body as I have no evidence of that at all, and maybe universal and limitless, timeless and spaceless and therefore the source of all things, and understanding this I can see that any thought or feeling that tells me I am a separate object is not necessarily true. I can remain open and feel connected, therefore.
I am aware that what I previously thought were real separate physical sensations and objects must be made of the same aware existence I am because there is no limit to what I am and no discernable gap between me and these objects. I can find no evidence in my experience of them as separate objects; therefore, I understand their appearances were illusory and simply hiding the underlying reality of Oneness with them.
I am so at peace because I realise everything is all one eternal spontaneous flow that I am not in control of and I can trust. I am it in this present moment, which is all there really is, and I now am totally clear that the only reason why I lose this peace, trust and experience of life-affirming qualities of love, truth, and beauty is that I qualify myself as an objective experience of being a physical sensation and thought that is not this. I can see the mind and body occurring within me, not vice versa. I feel universally grounded.
From the peace I now recognise I am, I discern thoughts that indicate practical care for my body, mind and world. I can see I will act upon as these thoughts are themselves in alignment with the natural laws of the Universe, which is an expression of the consciousness I am and therefore feel right and integral, and even if these activities are challenging, I trust intuitively that these same Universal laws will meet my actions halfway, and the needs of body, mind and world will be met.
From the peace I now recognise I am, I discern creative, enthusiastic thoughts that may be ways to share and express the peace I am called to act on in a non-attached manner so as not to depend on them for my happiness, which I have now fully recognised is not dependent on anything.
I choose to try and remember the Oneness I now realise I am as the real experience of what I am and not the previous experience of myself that I now see as an objectification of what I am, which creates physical fear and mental lack. Should any objections arise in my mind to the notion that I am the Oneness, I desire to investigate these thoroughly as part of this commitment to remain as Oneness.
Sometimes, though increasingly less, I may "choose" to fall back into separation to remind myself why I am the Oneness. This choice is itself not a choice in the egoic sense but a spontaneous occurrence of the consciousness I am.
Love
Freyja
